Andy Lien

Obviously, I have metformin 1000 mg buy not been posting every day.  Not-so-obviously, I haven’t been sticking to my Weight Loss plan for the past week.

Oh, heaving sigh.

I’m busy.  I’m tired.  I’m happy.  I’m cranky.  I’m wondering what the hell I’m doing.  I’m finding a new place to live.  I’m stuck indoors due to obscenely cold temperatures.  I’m trying to keep Grendel from licking off his paw.  I’m trying to keep up with everything going on.  I’m trying to stay creative.  I’m desperately trying to design my own logo and describe my own business.  I’m attempting to get over my stage fright.  I’m juggling new clients.  I’m trying to get various jobs done.  I’m trying to find more paying jobs.  I’m helping others.  I’m helping myself.

I’m succeeding.

Rah.

What I don’t have right now is the strength.  My strength is going to all of those other things.

Do you ever wonder where you’re going to drum up more strength?  How?

Why does losing weight take strength?  Why does it have to be work?

God.  That gnawing “No, you shouldn’t.”  So loathesome.

Taking a week off from the Weight Loss venture may not have done my Weigh-In Wednesday any good, but it did my psyche wonders.

So, I ate what I wanted to eat for the past week.

And, I gained 3 pounds for a total weight loss of 17.1 pounds.

And, I’m fine with it.

For every choice there is a consequence.  And, I’m at peace with this one.

I’ll get back on the wagon soon.

The strength is in there.

Somewhere.